Feral Amazonian Creature

Jan 29

So, the Amazon jungle had its way with me. 🐍

It took days of travel to get there and back. Once the “road” stopped, it was another 25km by canoe to the lodge.

Four days of trekking, canoeing, and swimming. Immersed amongst the highest density and diversity of life force itself.

I felt totally and utterly feral.

And in this feral state, I felt such an unspeakably deep joy. I felt so at home within myself. I felt as close as I’ve ever felt to self / truth / source / Gaia (however you want to call it).

Obviously.

Because if this is nature’s most visceral and dramatic and potent display of life force, it makes sense that I too felt so outrageously alive.

Because I am as feral and wild and exotic as this jungle by my very nature (we all are).

I just forget sometimes.

Also. Pink dolphins live in the Amazon rainforest. Yes they were actually pink. Yes they actually sigh with pleasure as their waxy bodies skim the meeting point of water and air. And yes I saw loads of them. 🤯

I swam in my favourite colour - sun rise and sun set mixed with water edges.

I also swam with hungry anacondas and caimans and piranhas.

Before I went outside, I would say in my head:

❤️ I come in peace

❤️ I come in love

Seemed to work as I appear to still be alive.

The shamen of indigenous tribe brought out a bottle of strong alcohol marinated in jungle plants. I ended up having about 5 shots of it. Just being my usual polite self, you know. 🙄🙊

Completely. Drunk. Wobbled back onto canoe. Giggling.

Pinched myself = middle of Amazonian jungle. Pitch black. Stars and planets performing seductively.

Torch spotlight scanning for red eyes at jet black water’s surface.

Red eyes! Red eyes!

Got down to eye level with caiman 🐊 about 2 meters away from his face.

Communed with caiman.

I only felt one thing. Very strongly. Very clearly.

❤️LOVE❤️

I was so surprised by this. I was expecting something sinister. Some kind of warning. Some hint of evil or darkness.

But no. All there was in this meeting was love.

Crocodiles (and relatives) have always exhilarated and terrified me. They are so perfect. No other dinosaur has survived the test of time.

As gateways to the ancient, I guess it makes perfect sense that all this creature had to say in our-late-night-drunken-chat was: ‘I love you’. And that all I had to say back was: ‘I love you too’.