A week of tantric shamanic ceremonies in a
Shakti Awakening Vision Quest led by the
phenomenally powerful and inspiring tantra teacher
Iris Disse
to prepare for:
This moment.
We circle around Temazcal in silence
The words ‘trust the process’ spiral through my eyes
And drop down into my womb
I deliver gifts to all four directions on the altar
Smudged by the Fire Chief
I get down on my knees to pray
Calling my ancestors and guides into this clay womb.
Each woman – appropriately – must be on her hands and knees
She must crawl into the abyss
Into her place in the way of things.
I am placed perfectly between
The Dance Chief of the West and the Keeper of the South
Between earth and water
Just as my body longed for.
Calling in the wisdom of the earth of the West
The grizzly bear who has the wisdom to sleep all winter
He knows the power of rest
He thinks before speaking
He does not abuse his power
And a song rises up from the earth out of my mouth
In reverence.
Calling in the wisdom of the water of the South
The Coyote who always comes to play
He has the intelligence to find the way for our growth
And if we are blocked, he will trick us into our growth,
He knows how to be fluid
To let go
To go with ease.
Calling in the wisdom of the fire of the East
Demanding all yonis reclaim their power
All of it
Utterly, completely and wildly powerful
Growling, prowling, molten moaning
An eagle with golden feathers
All seeing all knowing
Razor sharp instinct
Close to source
Feeling a tsunami of my own strength
Roaring through me
Putting old versions of me to death
I just lay there
Dying in the clay
Sprawled belly down face down.
Calling in the wisdom of the air of the North
The white buffalo woman
Giving
Abundant
Keeping the female wisdom of rituals
Dance Chief commanding and channelling and flowing
I am now floating somewhere between the worlds.
And so it is
The calendar year of 2024 closes
And I find myself in Temazcal
The womb of the volcanic earth
In the middle of the world
My naked clay body pouring my salty waters
Into the earth’s clay yoni
In complete darkness.
Four ceremonies
One for each direction
Seven seeds each for the west, south, east and north
For the bear, Cayote, eagle and white buffalo woman.
Fire Chief penetrates clay yoni cave with his fork
And offers the dark feminine void
Huge throbbing seed stones
White hot.
We throw our offerings on the seed
And marvel at how the masculine energy sparkles
Stars of consciousness in the ink black infinite sky
We compliment his beauty, his power, his heat,
We moan and hum in pleasure.
Everything is born from here.
The dark feminine clay void.
Penetrated by red hot masculine.
We are co-creating
As we honour this sexual dance
Of the feminine and masculine
That of creation itself.
We moan and roar
We sob into the clay earth
We taste her sweet bitterness with our tongues
She is getting so wet and slippery with our sweat
Fertile clay smeared all over our bodies, yonis, faces.
Hours pass by…
Singing of feathers in a storm
Chanting
Wailing
Crying
Ahoing
Sweating
Dying.
First, says Dance Chief, we pray for ourselves.
🙏🏻I pray for my blossoming
🙏🏻I pray to hear the deepest desires of my wild tender heart - and that I hear them loud and clear
🙏🏻I pray to always walk my path
🙏🏻I pray that I never make decisions from a place of fear
🙏🏻I pray to be strong, courageous, wild, and free, always
🙏🏻I pray that I stand in my power and continuously initiate the highest version of myself
🙏🏻I pray for the beautiful unfolding of my rose garden
🙏🏻I pray to continue to walk closer and closer to my truth until the day I die
🙏🏻I pray to be put to work - put me to service Great Spirit - I am here to serve
🙏🏻I pray to help mid-wife a new earth that vibrates high and conscious
🙏🏻I pray for my Queendom
🙏🏻I pray to have the poise to remain seated on my throne even in the throes of romance
🙏🏻I pray that love pours through me
🙏🏻I pray that my life is artful - and that it is a masterpiece.
Dance Chief says, now, we pray for others.
🙏🏻I pray that everyone’s basic human rights are respected
🙏🏻I pray that people find creativity and spaciousness in their lives
🙏🏻I pray that people stand still so that love can discover them
🙏🏻So that the disease of separation is cured
🙏🏻So they can walk a life of reverence
🙏🏻So that they are in romantic conversation with everything that is alive
🙏🏻I pray that people commit to walking closer and closer to their truth
🙏🏻So that they can be in their highest service
🙏🏻I pray that humanity plays, laughs and loves
🙏🏻I pray for sexy juicy peace
🙏🏻I pray that the animal kingdoms, earth and water kingdoms, survive and thrive
🙏🏻I pray for a conscious Earth
What happened thereafter is a story for another time or perhaps no other time…
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